This is odd coming from me but listen to my story…
I think Im addicted to love, but why not? I am created to love and to be loved and human beings thrive off of love.
So my point is if you have that love, why not embrace every moment together? I mean hello, dear Sir who Id easily marry, Im willing to give up so much for you!
Well he could of had me there with him tomorrow as I was willing to drive 2 and a half hours to see him but instead he turned off his phone
no, no fucking smileys! urgh its annoying
I have never seen this side of him, it’s quite shocking to my soul. you know, the soul he buttered up and softened and then boom wound your heart.
Wait…. all because I was willing to go spend easter with him???
Sure I was most hurt when he left with no Im gonna miss you’s or an awesome bye cause like to me greetings are important??? right???? Im greeting you and allowing you into my space or greeting you with love and passion because every hello is so good and every goodbye is so special because we cant tell what may happen to that person before we see them again? and we wanna love them so much because we not ready to leave and still want to love and a hug is a pathetic excuse of a replacement of love but we all do it anyway because its helps the pain somehow.
Well guys the update is that his phone is still off and im completely heart broken :’(
In over a year of knowing him he has never acted this way before… its so cold hearted aint it? Purposely being ignored by the person you want to talk to the most… sheesh it’s harsh, never expected this from him.
I thought my last relationship was the last one I would ever have to experience this excruciating heart ache.
DAMMIT! Now here it is again… Go away you ugly emotion You are ruining my life.